Last night I was talking with a friend and I was remembering an incident when my enemy tried to entangle me in the bondage of unforgiveness. I remember the moment clearly, I even remember where I was standing in the apartment we lived in downtown. The familiar feeling was quick to rise up, seemingly starting in my belly and moving towards a hot flush on my face. I felt the anger and indignation flare up and momentarily I gave into it there, but instead of allowing my pride to consume me, I overcame. It was a significant moment, because I have not been tempted in that way again. (to be sure, it was a specific incident, and surely I still struggle with forgiveness in many other areas)

If God could work in me once like that, he can surely work in me again but I fear I've been like Gideon, wasting time until there is no choice for me but to act.

I've been reading a book by Donald Miller, "A Million Miles in a Thousand Years" and I'm impacted by Miller's explanation of story and the significance of an inciting incident, a catalyst that moves the story forward.

The year that I've taken out of leadership to pursue God has not been exactly what I thought it would be. I'm looking towards the year's deadline and I am not sure I accomplished what I thought I would accomplish but I do pray that this is an inciting incident in my life and that going forward, I will not waste time any longer but I will act.

Today, I want to see Jesus. A while back, Max asked me if when I say that I'm going to see Jesus, if I really see him. I answered yes to him, but it's been a long time since I've had a vision of Jesus. I want to see him today. I'm confident Jesus will be where I'm going to be, I pray that I'll have the eyes to see him.